Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I haven't stopped blogging!

No, I haven't stopped blogging! I've just been super busy!

I do have exciting news: I think I ovulated on my own! I've been on the metformin now for a little over a month. I had a ton of EWCM this cycle and I started spotting today! So, if I get af, I know I ovulated! I never get af unless I do ovulate, so I think it is safe to say that. If I did ovulate, I'm temping next cycle. I still need to decide if I'll move on to injects. I think I may just try it natural for another month if I in fact did O.

I feel sort of bad. A year ago, my best friend accidentally got pregnant. She had just started fating her current boyfriend, and, get this, he was wearing a condom!!! She has a history of getting pregnant like this. She has 2 kids, both conceived on BCPs. She is very fertile. Anyway, she ended up having an abortion because she could not have another kid right now. She is still with her boyfriend and would love to marry him and have more kids. But today she told me how she was paranoid that having an abortion messed up her fertility somehow. She told me how the nurse practitioner said she was fine (yeah, like you can tell ANYTHING about fertility from a pelvic exam, give me a break!), and she was relieved and just worried. Well, I had a flash of wanting her to have some difficulty getting pregnant next time she wants to. Of course, I felt really bad after, but it was there. I think I would just like her to know how it feels. She actually knows 2 other women besides me who have had to go to REs and get fertility treatments. She has become a bit more sensitive (she used to not be sensitive at ALL), but she still has no clue what it actually feels like.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

This is great!

This was posted on a board I go to, and I think it's great! I hear comments like these all the time (having to do w/ infertility). Doesn't it sound ridiculous when you put in this context? So why can't people be more sensitive?

If we were paralyzed instead of infertile, would people say this to us??

As soon as you buy a wheelchair, I bet you'll be able to walk again!

Boy, I wish I were paralyzed. I get so tired of walking, and if I were paralyzed I wouldn't have to walk everywhere!

My cousin was paralyzed, but she started shaving her legs in the other direction and she could walk again. You should try that.

I guess God just didn't mean for you to be able to walk.

Oh, I know exactly how you feel, because I have an ingrown toenail.

Sorry, we don't cover your treatment for paraplegia because it's not a life-threatening illness.

Oh, I have just the opposite problem, I have to walk walk walk everywhere I go.

You're just trying to hard, relax and you'll be able to walk.

You're SO lucky...Think of the money you save on shoes!

I don't know why you are being so selfish! You should at least be happy that I can walk!!

I hope you don't try those anti-paralyzation drugs. They sometimes make people run too fast and they get hurt.

Look at those people hiking ... doesn't that make you want to hike?

Do you want to rub my legs? That might help you walk and give you luck.

Take a vacation and you'll walk!

I just ran a marathon and won. Let me tell you all about it and show you my medal and tell you how everyone is doting on me!

Here is a special walking shoe pendant. If you put it under your pillow then it will help you walk. Three other people who limped because of sprains and were so worried are walking just fine now.

You are just too worried about never walking, it's all in your head! If you stop thinking about it so much, it will happen.

Thursday, February 08, 2007

AARRRRGGGHHHH Insurance!!!!!!

I am SO frustrated right now!! My insurance is saying the RE is not covered. So I go through all the trouble of getting a referral, making sure I am covered, go to the RE and then I get a bill from the RE. So then I called the insurance company and they told me I AM covered. So I called the hmo and they called my insurance while I was on the line and told the hmo I do NOT have coverage. So now, I had to contact a third party administrator. UGH, so frustrating! I know I am covered. If they changed the policy, they never informed me of taking out fertility coverage, so I don't think they can do that. I'm just scared I will have to pay it. For 2 visits, it is $2000. How the hell am I then supposed to afford more visits with more ultrasounds and injects?? I really hate this. I should have known this would happen.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Best ever

Best site ever!

There is a link to the right under "links"

Thursday, February 01, 2007

I hate thinking of titles

In a little over a week, I lost 1 pound! Woohoo! The metformin has decreased my appetite and I've really had to watch what I eat so I don't get sick. Since I started taking it, I really haven't had any hypoglycemic episodes. Wait. I did have one yesterday, but I could pinpoint WHY I had it. I had a small piece of carrot cake and no protein with it, and nothing after it. Before met, it wouldn't matter WHAT I ate, I would have a reaction about 2-3 hours after I ate. So this is so nice.

You may have noticed I took off the fertility friend link in my blog. Well, I'm mad at them. It's too "big brotherish" over there. You can't even PM someone your own email address without getting in trouble! It's getting a bit ridiculous. But, I have found a new home.