Wednesday, January 24, 2007


I am finally starting to not feel nauseous!! My appetite is coming back a bit, but it is still reduced. I am very thirsty all the time and must have water only. I tried drinking a vitamin water (which I LOVE) and couldn't drink it.

Must. Have. Plain. Water.

I've been eating healthier, and that helps a lot. But since I was nauseous this weekend, I didn't get much at the store. This week I started classes, so it's been tough getting food. And I was scared to eat much Monday and Tuesday because I didn't want to get nauseous again. Today I ate more and not just protein, and didn't get sick, so that was good.

It would be so nice if the met made me ovulate! I'm still trying to decide if I should start temping again. My RE doesn't want me to, but it is tempting!

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Not a good weekend!

I started Metformin yesterday. Was nauseous on and off all day and night. For dinner, I thought I would be ok to eat a burrito (whole wheat tortilla) from Rubio's. But I went to eat it, and it tasted nasty! It almost made me throw up! The good part about metformin is that it is suppressing my appetite so far.

DH is frustrating me. On New Year's, he said he was going to quit drinking to make sure his spermies are fine. I thought that was great! Well, that didn't happen. The last 2 weekends, he was helping his cousin move (he previously lived in Michigan) and they would go out after. Fine. I thought last weekend was the last drinking weekend. This weekend his cousin came down to visit and watch the game. Originally DH said he wasn't going to drink. Then, last night right before cousin gets here, he says he is going to drink some. That made me so mad! He said he wasn't going to get trashed, just have a few beers. Well, no, that's not ok! I have had to make SO many sacrifices, he could make this one! And, he couldn't even see it from my point of view. He said he did, but I don't think so because he doesn't see what the big deal is. I tried to tell him I needed his support, and by not drinking that is supporting me.

Remember, this happened minutes before cousin showed up. So we have still not had a chance to resolve this, and won't until cousin leaves tonight. I'm just so annoyed.

To make matters worse, a friend in my Buddy Group on another site was pretty mean to me. That, on top of everything else is not fun.

Friday, January 19, 2007

The Plan

It feels so nice to finally have a good plan in place. I feel like I'm moving forward again with TTC.

I went to the RE yesterday and had my follow up appointment. I was super nervous because last time there was a cyst that was not fluid filled. The RE wasn't too concerned, but I was! She did the ultrasound and it was gone! That was a huge relief! We then went over all the other tests. I didn't write everything down, but a few I did:
Testosterone: 93
FSH: 3.7
LH: 5.8

So my testosterone is really high! She said it is higher than she usually sees with PCOS patients. She also said in normal weight PCOS patients, the FSH to LH ratio is usually higher. She said I was unusual because the numbers are pretty normal. But I did get Metformin! I am going to start it tomorrow. I had the choice of starting injects now, or waiting to see if the met made me ovulate. She wanted me to try the met first, and I agree. It would be NICE if all I need is the met!

DH got his sperm analysis, and it all looked pretty good:
count: 61.7 million
motility: 62%
morphology on strict Kruger scale: 11%

the morphology was a little low, but the doc said it was fine. So I'm going to try not to stress over it too much!

If anyone is reading this, and is dealing with infertility, please try to go to an RE. It is so much better than the OB or other doctor! Push for it if you need a referral and can't get one. I can't tell you how much better I feel now that I'm under the care of an RE.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007


Ahh, Provera. Turns out I do have to take the Provera. I spoke to a nurse (I think she was a nurse) and told her about my spotting/light flow, and she put me on hold to, I'm assuming, ask the doc about it. Well, she came back on the line and said I still had to do the provera. Unfortunately! I'm just hoping my cramps are not as bad as last time!

I have my next appointment in 1 week and I am anxious for it. I want to get on metformin already! I am so not patient. Funny, because today I was working with a student, and I work with struggling readers, and the co-teacher commented to me after about how I was so patient! I laughed and told her the ONLY thing I am patient about is students. I'm very IMpatient when it comes to anything else! Fertility especially!

Sunday, January 07, 2007

10 vials

I went to get my blood work done, and they took 10 vials of blood!! And it was fasting, so that didn't help! I usually don't do well with getting blood drawn, and the last time I had 5 vials drawn, I thought I was going to pass out. So, I was nervous! But I sat there for a few minutes and was fine. Thank god, because I had to go to work right after!

Interestingly enough, Friday I started to spot. At first I thought it was from the trans-vaginal ultrasound. But then it started getting heavier, and it was almost a light flow. So that got me worried. Saturday I also had almost a light flow, and now today, Sunday, I'm back to spotting. I don't think the u/s could cause that much bleeding, so I'm thinking I had af on my own! That would be crazy! Since going off the pill, I've only had 1 af on my own and that was 2 months after stopping the pill. I wonder if I ovulated? Now, she did do a progesterone test to see if I ovulated, but I'm thinking that since the b/w was Friday and I started spotting, that my progesterone would be low anyway. I guess it doesn't matter if I ovulated or not since I am not pregnant. I will call the RE just to be sure about this bleeding. Maybe this means I won't have to take Provera! That would be nice.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

RE Visit!

Let me just say, that I feel SO much better now that I am at the RE!!!! The visit was great. She explained everything very thoroughly. She suspected I had PCOS, but unlike my first OB, wanted to confirm with tests! So while there, I got an ultrasound and I do indeed have the "string of pearls" I also had a larger cyst on an ovary that was not water filled, so she is going to watch it. I go back in 2 weeks and hopefully it will have gone away. I'm a little worried about it, but she told me not to worry. But of course, I WILL worry.

So I do have PCOS, but am getting more blood work done tomorrow. The blood work my OB had me do was not all of the b/w she needs to see about PCOS. I will start on metformin, and a side effect is losing weight, oh darn (sarcasm). I'm a little worried about some of the other side effects, but I will have to do some research and see how to lessen those with diet and whatever else. Then, it is up to me if I want to wait on injects or start right away. I think I want to start right away. I am NOT patient especially since I've been trying for almost a year and a half and have only ovulated twice.

I am feeling SO much more optimistic! I really like the RE, she is great and the staff is wonderful too!

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

1 more day!

Tomorrow is my RE consult! I am so excited! I just went over the tons of paperwork to make sure it was all filled out. We've had a lot of the initial fertility testing, so I'm not sure what questions I have. I guess I will have to just wait and see what they say during the appointment. I'm so glad I'm finally getting to see the RE. I feel like, finally, we can get this going!