Wednesday, October 24, 2007


What a week. I live in San Diego, and most of you I'm sure have seen news coverage of the fires. It is really bad here. Luckily, we didn't have to evacuate - we are in a pretty safe area, though yesterday I got a little nervous. But the winds have died down, so I'm hoping that things will be able to get under control. Most of the county has had to evacuate their homes. It's very sad, and I know lots of people who have had to evacuate.

Air quality around my house had been ok. Not great, but ok. Today, it's worse. I woke up and my house smells like a campfire! I've been staying indoors, but now my throat is fairly irritated and I've been coughing a little. I know it can't be healthy!

In baby news... I've felt them a little, but nothing like Sunday! I would to feel them more again! Hubby is getting more excited. He has now been talking to them a little through my belly :) It's very cute.

Sunday, October 21, 2007


So for a few weeks occasionally I've been feeling something - wasn't sure if it was movement or not. Well, tonight, I definitely am feeling movement!!! The first time felt like a muscle twitch, but kept going, then stopped and started again. I felt that a little later. Then the last time I know I felt both of them move! The last one I felt was pretty strong, a totally strange sensation! Of course, I share this with hubby, but he is not nearly as excited as I am!

Saturday, October 20, 2007

I made it through my first week back to work! It's been exhausting, but I made it! I get out of breath really easy, so I make sure to take it as easy as I can. It's difficult trying to go back to a semi normal life after being in bed for 3 weeks.

It's nice that I can appreciate this pregnancy in ways that normal, "fertile" cannot. I think most women do know how much of a miracle it is to have a baby (or babies!) growing inside of you, but after trying for so long, it is special. There are things that are uncomfortable, and I'm sure will get even more uncomfortable, but I don't really complain about them, I know it comes with the territory and it is just really cool to be growing lives inside of you!

And let me just say a little about Pregnancy Brain! I have it bad. I used to be very good at spelling and grammar. Now, sometimes I can't remember how to spell certain (easy) words! And I find myself making stupid usage errors, like using "to" for "too" and not catching it until later, if ever! I think that bugs me the most, but at least I have something to blame it on!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Isn't it sad I'm second guessing posting anything? When I started this blog I really thought nobody would read. Now it seems there are quite a few people who read! I just hope anyone who reads this will kindly take the negativity elsewhere. Not that I've had any lately, but it was bad enough in the recent past.

I can't believe I'm almost 16 weeks! I'm also starting to show. And I mean show so that strangers notice! However, I've noticed a few women look at my belly and I always think about how *I* felt when I saw a pregnant woman and I wasn't pregnant. Then I feel bad. I wish at times like those I could have a shirt or something that said I struggled with infertility.

I don't have any appointments until November 8th. 3 weeks from this Thursday! I've been so spoiled with all the ultrasounds. It's been nice because I like seeing them, knowing they are ok. So I think these next few weeks may be hard. I'm going to try my best not to freak out and worry. I'm also trying not to worry about my NT scan results.

This was my first week back to work. It's been good. Tiring, but good. However, I've been telling people that I'm having twins. Usually that is fine, but a teacher at my school had triplets a few years back. I knew this, but of course then he wanted to talk about it a little bit when he found out I was having twins. Then today, the counselor came up to me and let me know her mom was a triplet. Of course, that made me sad. I know the decision I made was the right one. But it still hurts. It's not like I'm over it. I know what I did was in the best interest of my babies' health, but I am still sad. I'm sure that is to be expected, but it is difficult.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

I had my follow up ultrasound today with the peri! But before I get to that, I have been up and around for 2 days no and NO spotting!!! So I'm off bed rest!

We asked the ultrasound tech if she could tell the gender, and she said she'd look, but it's not 100%. So, Baby A is a girl! Later the peri also looked and said he would bet money that Baby A is a girl!

Baby B the u/s tech said also looked like a girl! Now, when the peri looked, she wasn't cooperating, so he couldn't tell at all. So there is still a chance it might not be a girl, but I have a feeling it is! I'm a little bummed we don't have one of each, but that's ok. At least now I get to us my two favorite girl names!

Everything else looked ok. I didn't write about this before because of all the drama over my blog, but I will share it now. When I went in to the peri when I had spotting I had the NT scan done. Now, I thought it had been done *before* the reduction, but apparently not. I'm not happy about that. So because it was done after the reduction, we couldn't do the blood test part. So the results aren't all that accurate. Baby B came back with a fine ratio - nothing to worry about. Baby A has a risk of 1/248. So we are concerned. I won't do an amnio - I've had enough needles sticking in there, and I'm NOT going to have another reduction if it came back positive, so there is no point. In 3 weeks we will have another detailed ultrasound to look for soft markers. Today, they found NO soft markers, so I think that's a good sign. Also, we were talking to the peri about it (it was a different peri who did the measurements) and he did tell us that 2 of the measurements were normal, but one was higher, so they input the higher one to err on the side of caution. So I'm hoping that everything will be fine.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with my OB, and the nurse practitioner already told me that he does NOT believe in the NT scan, so that was nice to hear. I love my OB and have confidence in him.

Some people asked if I would share the gender, and of course I did :) There is NO way I could NOT find out the gender because I am such a planner. I like to know and plan for things!

I hope the rest of my pregnancy goes smoothly.

Monday, October 08, 2007

I'm still on bed rest, but I'm hoping that when I go to the peri on Thursday I will be off it! Today I had an appointment with the nurse practitioner. If I had a "normal" pregnancy this would be the first standard visit. The NP was great, and she did a quick ultrasound! The beans are doing great! Also heard their heartbeats and they sounded good too! So, I am relieved and happy now. Thursday I have the peri appointment and Friday I have an OB appointment.

I'm also definitely starting to show!