Friday, July 07, 2006

Clomid

And so I began Clomid. I was very nervous as I took my first Clomid pill. I read message boards, and heard lots of horror stories about Clomid: One girl was rushed to the ER with horrible abdominal pain and had to have surgery to deflate her enlarged ovaries. And, of course, she just had to post pictures with this! Then there were stories of horrible side effects: weight gain, terrible moodiness, severe ovary pain, the list goes on and on. And I am a papranoid person with a touch of hypochondria. I always think the worst is going to happen. So taking that first pill was scary. But I did it. And I took the rest of the pills.

Amazingly enough, my side effects were not bad. Day 4 of the Clomid I had some sharp pains in my ovaries, and while it did hurt, I was more paranoid that it was going to get worse or not stop at all. Later in the month, I had more pain in the ovary area that hurt. I was at work, wlaking, and I must have had a pained look on my face because a co-worker stopped me.
"Are you ok, Heather?" she asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I smiled weakly.
Luckily the pains subsided and I went about my normal teaching day.

Because of the pains, I was convinced the Clomid was working! I would be pregnant in no time! Every day I religiously took my temperature, felt my cervix, and checked my cervical fluid. A year ago, I would have laughed if you told me I would be checking me cervix!

Finally, it looked as though I ovulated! I was ecstatic since there had been nothing since I began. I tried not to get TOO happy though. I knew if my temperatures didn't stay up, that would mean no ovulation. As it was, the charting software only gave me dotted lines which meant I might not have ovulated. A few days later, my temps dropped. I did not ovulate. I was devastated. My doctor had said before he wanted to put me on metformin because he thought I had PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome). However, he said this based on one thing: no ovulation. He never bothered to look at my medical history, do any bloodwork, or even an ultrasound. I didn't want to start metformin because it lowers your blood sugar. I already have problems with low blood sugar if I do not east every 2-3 hours. I had a feeling the metformin would make that worse.

So, I called my doctor and asked for the 100 mg. of clomid. He said ok! But as I thought about it and read more about clomid, I began to worry. What if I had cysts? You are not supposed to take clomid if you have cysts! It can make the cysts grow and that can be painful as well as dangerous. I tried not to think about it, but as the days continued, I kept worrying. So, I called my doctor and left him a message asking if I needed a pelvic exam to check for cysts. But I have a feeling I know what his answer will be: NO. Already with the fist dose of clomid, I had called him after I thought I might have ovulated and asked if I could a progesterone blood test. If your progesterone is over a certain number, it means you did ovulate. His response was that the numbers wouldn't tell us anything and it was expensive. Hello? This is MY body and MY money! I probably should have insisted that I wanted it done, but being the wimp that I am, I did not.

After that incident, I also made an appointment with the other OB in the office. Of course, it takes 2 months to get an appointment. But when I do go to that appointment, it will be almost 1 year that I've been Trying To Conceive. So, I will ask the new doctor if he will give me a referral to the fertility clinic. I would feel a LOT better if I was monitored while on clomid.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Why in the heck did you take clomid if you were not going to keep all of the possible babies? Talk about idiotic. It's one of the first things they explain to you when the pill is prescribed. Hope you enjoyed killing one of your children.

Anonymous said...

omg thats soo mean and harsh comment ...shame on you lad or guy!
well..i'm the same thing. i'm afraid to take meds but want to have babies soon hopefully.

Anonymous said...

Iv just started clomid, and if u need to put horrible things like that when someone is just trying to express how they feel,take a good look at your self!that comment is vile

gen said...

OMG! how can that person say such an ugly thing. they got the balls to talk crap but dont have the balls to put who it is.

didnt ur mother teach u if you dont have anything nice to say DONT SAY ANYTHING AT ALL!!!

Adele said...

I'm with Anonymous 1. I'm so sad about the baby you killed. Perhaps you didn't fully realize what you were doing. Lord, have mercy. Should you ever decide you wish to heal, contact Rachel Vineyard retreats. (www.rachelvineyards.org) They have healing weekends for those who have had abortions and chose to end the lives of their babies. This will come back to bite you horribly, unless you face the truth and repent of it. Name your baby. Prayers for you.

Jessica and Jack said...

The risk of triplets is extremely rare on Clomid. Regardless, this woman made an educated decision to carry two babies instead of three which greatly improved the probability of her having healthy children. Those of you who are judging her for a choice she made about HER body and HER life need to take a good look at how you treat people. I'm sure choosing to have reduction was a painful and difficult decision for someone who tried so hard for so long to have a heathy child. Shame on those of you who utter anything but words of support and encouragement! Keep your nasty judgmental comments to yourself and spare those of us who are loving caring individuals longing to bring a child into this world.

Congratulations on your twins, Heather.

Jessica and Jack said...

The risk of triplets is extremely rare on Clomid. Regardless, this woman made an educated decision to carry two babies instead of three which greatly improved the probability of her having healthy children. Those of you who are judging her for a choice she made about HER body and HER life need to take a good look at how you treat people. I'm sure choosing to have reduction was a painful and difficult decision for someone who tried so hard for so long to have a heathy child. Shame on those of you who utter anything but words of support and encouragement! Keep your nasty judgmental comments to yourself and spare those of us who are loving caring individuals longing to bring a child into this world.

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Majid Inayat said...

Stop ur mean judgement and don't upset people u can't say wat she would have had to go through to make this decision!!! And using da word killing u shame on u!! Get of this site!!! Its about supporting people not to b mean!!! U cold hearted so and do so....!!!!