Back to Work

I started back to work yesterday. The summer went by way too fast! I think that tends to happen when you go by cycles. You are always looking forward to the next cycle, because maybe, just maybe, you will get knocked up!

So I won't have as much time to update this blog. But I'm hoping that I do keep up with it. I've tried blogging in the past and I just didn't stay committed to it.

I had EWCM this morning! I did not have any that I saw last cycle, so I hope this is a good sign! This has got to my cycle!

Blood tests normal

My doctor called and let me know my blood tests were normal! Of course, he left a message so I was not able to ask him what the numbers were specifically. I might not ask him becuase I can see myself totally stressing out about the numbers. I will call tomorrow for the results of hubby's SA. I hope it was ok!

So far, I have not had any side effets from the clomid this cycle. I hope that doesn't mean it won't work this time! It would be great if it worked and I didn't have any side effects.

Woohoo!

I had my appointment today with my new OB. I like him SO much better! He actually looked at my charts, though he said I didn't have to do the temperature thing. Of course, I still will take my temperature otherwise the not knowing would kill me! Then he ordered blood tests to check all my levels. He also ordered a sperm analysis for my hubby, and I am glad since my hubby works around hazardous materials, that makes me nervous. The doc said to continue on this cycle, and do one more of 100 mg clomid and if I'm still not pregnant, we will discuss IUI! I am just so happy I have finally found a more proactive doctor! Took long enough!

Hubby upset me a bit with his reaction to the SA (sperm analysis). At first he was fine, then I told him exactly when he needed it done. Well, he wasn't happy because he has other stuff going on during this time. Well, too bad! What is up with guys? We women go through so much and guys will have a fit when they are the tiniest bit inconvenienced! I will say he wasn't too bad, but still, it upset me. I thought he should just be like, "Sure honey! Whenever!" But no. And he doesn't get that even asking me if we can do it later hurts. I've been waiting for a YEAR to have kids! I finally get the test and you want to wait?? I don't think so! It's just annoying.

On to Round 3

3 is a lucky number. Perhaps this will be my month! I decided to go ahead with the 100 mg. of clomid again and not wait to see the doc. I'm going to my new OB on Tuesday and hopegully he will give me a referral to the fertility specialist! I started the clomid yeserday and am dreading the last 2 days of the clomid and right after. That is when all the side effects seem to hit me.

I'm also starting back to work really soon, so hopefully that will take my mind off everything! I'll be setting up my classroom this week, even though teachers don't officially go back until August 30th. I want to get it done with so that I will have time to plan some lessons.

I'm out

I had more spotting yesterday, but it kept stopping and starting so I wasn't sure if my period was coming or not. Last night I had major cramps and figured the witch was on her way, and sure enough! This morning she arrived in full force.

I'm not as upset as I thought I'd be. I am SO happy I ovulated! I was really scared I would have to take a much higher dose of clomid. But 100 mg worked! Hopefully it works again this month. I will start taking it again on Friday. This is the last of the refills I have. I will be seeing my new OB on Monday and I plan on demanding a referral to an RE and I want a SA (sperm analysis) for my hubby. Hopefully, it all goes according to plan!

12 dpo

I tested this morning and got a negative. It's still early though. I am going to test again on Thursday. I think that will be a better test. I had some weird "spotting" today. I first thought it was spotting, but when I looked closer it looked more like pinkish cervical mucus. But I thought I would continue to spot. The spotting stopped! Nothing more since that tiny bit this morning! I think that is strange. I'm hoping it's a good sign, but it probably means nothing.

11 DPO

I had a scare. My temp went down a couple days ago and I thought perhaps I hadn't ovulated. But then, it went back up. So I do think I have ovulated. I am thinking of taking a pregnancy test tomorrow since it is possible to get a positive at 12 dpo. It is a little early, but plenty of people have gotten an accurate reading at that time. I'm nervous. I think it will be negative. Then, I think maybe I should wait longer. But the plan is to test tomorrow.
Here is my chart:


I know it is small, but when I make it bigger it takes up the whole page.

Tick tock, tick tock

Waiting to test is a difficult thing. Especially when you are not working! I am trying not to look for any "signs" to obsess over, and refuse to admit to having any. I may possibly be getting sick though. I did not feel well today. I suspect the headache I had was from the clomid; I have heard of that being a side effect after you ovulate. I think I will probably take the test on Monday or Tuesday. Maybe Wednesday. I'm a bit scared to take it. It's no fun getting a negative!

I'll Admit It

I said that if my temperature stayed up today, I would admit that I did ovulate. My temp stayed up! I ovulated! Of course, I still feel a little weird saying it, and would feel more comfortable putting "probably" in front of "ovulated". I am still wary because I have not ovulated since coming off the pill last September. Almost a year ago!

So now I wait (again) and will test next week sometime. I'm trying to figure out what day to test. I don't want to test too early, but I'm impatient! Maybe I will test at 12 dpo (days past ovulation), which would be next Monday.

Still Here!

My temps have stayed up! On Fertility Friend, I have a "Buddy Group," which is a group of girls who have come together to chat and support each other while trying to conceive. I keep telling them, well maybe I didn't ovulate - I don't want to get my hopes up! So today they are telling me to admit that I did ovulate. I'm still nervous though. I think tomorrow, if my temps stay up maybe I will accept it. I just really hate getting my hopes up and then I get a bunch of low temps and no period and know there is no way I ovulated. This has happened to me SO many times. So I'm still cautiously optimistic!

I just realized that I timed my doctors appointment just right! The appointment with my new OB is in 2 weeks. By then I will know:
1. if I ovulated
2. if I got pregnant

So that helps. If I went now, he would have less reason to give me the referral to the RE. If I actually didn't ovulate, or if I'm not pregnant, I can say, hey, I've been trying for 1 year, I'm not getting any younger! So I want to see a specialist.

Coverlines

My temp. stayed up today so I did get coverlines! I'm still cautiously happy. I still think that my temps could go down and my coverline get taken away. It's happened before! So, more waiting! Oh joy, I just love waiting!

About 2 weeks until I see my new OB and demand a referral to the fertility clinic! I think I will just concentrate on that and the waiting won't get to me as much. I hope.

Maybe I O'd!

There is a chance, I may have ovulated! I have two high tempertures, so if the temps stay up then that means I ovulated! I really hope I did.

I'm running out of things to do on my long summer vacation! I keep reminding myself that next month I will be wishing again for the relaxation of summer! I'm not sure why it can't be a balance. When I'm in school I am super busy and stressed. Out of school, there is nothing to do after awhile. I would love a job (education related of course) that isn't too stressful during the year, that I totally love, and then have something to do in the summer as well. But that is why I am back in school to get my Reading Specialist Credential.Then I can hopefully find a job at a school where I work with teachers and coach them and also work with small groups of students. Oh, that would be wonderful!

Anxiously awaiting

My temperature dropped today, so hopefully that is a good sign that I possibly ovulated. I also had more pains today, but now they are gone! I will just have to wait and see what my temperature does tomorrow! I don't want to get my hopes up, I really don't, but please let me have ovulated!

Ho hum

I'm learning more about blogging! I didn't realize you had to set the comments to allow anyone to post comments! Thanks, Joie, for letting me know! Now anyone can post comments.

I'm still waiting to ovulate. I had some cramps today for about an hour and pain on my right ovary side. I did not have cramps last time, so I'm hoping that is a good sign. This is all one big waiting game. And I am NOT good at waiting. You wait to ovulate, then if you ovulate, you wait until you can test or for your period. After that, you wait again to ovulate! And for women like me, who aren't ovulating, it is one big waiting game. Even after you think you might have ovulated, you don't know. SO many times I thought I ovulated, when I didn't. You get your hopes up, and then your temps are low and no more cover lines on your chart. Talk about a let down! I've been waiting 10 long months just to ovulate. I'm going to be really angry at my body if it doesn't ovulate this time. The mood swings, especially this month, were awful. Since I had to put up with it, I had better ovulate!