The last couple of days have been rough emotionally! I of course keep thinking about reduction. It's hard for me to say right now what I'm going to do. I'm leaning toward reduction (and if you have anything bad to say about reduction, please respect me and DO NOT post any negative comments on my blog. Keep them to yourself. I don't need the extra stress right now), but my third is measuring really small. So, I really have to see what happens with it. I'm also concerned that if it does continue, there could be something wrong with it.
Thinking about reduction - having to think about it - is no fun. It is not easy at all. I tried for so long to get pregnant, and couldn't on my own, and now I have 3 and all the risks that come with that. In a way it's not fair - I stress for almost 2 years about not being able to have kids and now I have to really stress over this. I know with kids the stress never goes away, but this. This is different. Nobody wants to faced with this decision.
It amazes me that some people think, or seem to think, this is an easy decision. I've gotten a comment (not here - somewhere else) that really hurt. And also made me angry. How dare anyone judge me. If you have never been in this situation, there is no way you can judge someone who has to go through this. I understand that some are completely against reduction for religious or other personal reasons. Great! But expressing that to someone who has to decide? That really is not their place. The better way to deal with it is how Karen did in the comments of my last blog. She offered some info and warned it was biased against reduction. I went and read her blog, and it was really informative! Not judgmental and one-sided like many people who have never had to face this decision can be. I really appreciate her comment and enjoyed reading the blog. I want all the information I can get! Obviously, she chose not to reduce, but even in her blog she stressed this was the decision for her and that she wasn't judging others who go through it.
What are my reasons for leaning toward it? I know there are risks involved in having triplets. I've seen a couple shows about triplet births, and it was so sad. They all were about 2-3 pounds, born really early and most of them had to have surgery, their organs weren't completely formed, and they had to stay in the NICU for a few months. To me, that seems so awful to do to them. It broke my heart watching it.
I also, finally, talked to my OB briefly today and he did mention there is a greater risk for losing ALL of the babies if I continue with them. I know there is that risk after reduction too, so I would like to see numbers of both.
The perinatologist should be calling me tomorrow to set up an appointment. I think I will feel a little better after talking to him. At least I'll have more information.