I had to take a little bit of a break from even looking on here. But, I felt like today I was strong enough to deal with whatever comments I saw. I'm truly at peace (sort of) with my decision. I KNOW it is the best thing for my family. I know this deep in my heart, and it is the decision for us. Now, that doesn't mean I'm happy about having to do this! This is the worst thing I think I could go through.
I respect the anon commenter who did apologize. And trust me, I know that all my babies have heartbeats - I have seen them all. And it makes it so much harder. I cannot stand that they have to do this procedure at 12-12 1/2 weeks. That being said, this is the right decision for us. I've done lots of research and thought about all different situations. I don't find fault with people who decide to carry triplets and risk miscarrying the whole thing or risk serious birth defects, so I expect others to not judge me here.
Thank you to all of you who have been SO supportive! It really means so much to me. My appointment is Friday at 1:15, and I am terrified.