Saturday, September 15, 2007

I had to take a little bit of a break from even looking on here. But, I felt like today I was strong enough to deal with whatever comments I saw. I'm truly at peace (sort of) with my decision. I KNOW it is the best thing for my family. I know this deep in my heart, and it is the decision for us. Now, that doesn't mean I'm happy about having to do this! This is the worst thing I think I could go through.

I respect the anon commenter who did apologize. And trust me, I know that all my babies have heartbeats - I have seen them all. And it makes it so much harder. I cannot stand that they have to do this procedure at 12-12 1/2 weeks. That being said, this is the right decision for us. I've done lots of research and thought about all different situations. I don't find fault with people who decide to carry triplets and risk miscarrying the whole thing or risk serious birth defects, so I expect others to not judge me here.

Thank you to all of you who have been SO supportive! It really means so much to me. My appointment is Friday at 1:15, and I am terrified.

11 comments:

Brian, Melissa and Nathan said...

Oh, I am so sorry that you have felt you can't even look at your own blog due to some people's comments. I check it daily as I have been following your journey from the time you first mentioned wanting to be a mommy on NI. You will be in my thoughts on Friday. I cannot imagine being put in this situation after all you have endured to get to this place. Hugs to you and your husband.

Fertilize Me said...

thinking of you

Drowned Girl said...

You'll be in my thoughtts

xx

Kristen said...

I am new to your blog but I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and sending lots of love your way. I can't imagine how hard this decision was for your and your husband to make. We are all here for you.

XOXO

Theresa said...

You and your husband are in our thoughs.

Donna said...

Good thoughts still coming your way. Just out of curiosity, how do you handle all of this while working? Have you taken lots of sick leave and do they know what is happening? If not, it sure must be hard to keep going without support.

Truck Driver Wife said...

Will be thinking of you this week as this journey takes you to a very difficult place on Friday. Praying for comfort for you and your family.

Emmy said...

You are in my prayers!!! No one should ever have to make this decision but I respect it and understand why. You do what is best for you and your family... Again, may you have a healthy nine months. I've followed your blog for a while now but don't always post. Hugs and love!!

THE JOURNEY TO A HAPPY HEALTHIER ME.... said...

Heather- Hang in there girl, I know how long and hard you and your husband have traveled on this journey to get to where you now are...I wish there was something more I could do for you. Know that I will be thinking of you all week, especially on Friday. Try and get some rest. And because I can't think of anything else to tell you, I am going to pass on some words of wisdom that a wise nursing instructor once told me that have gotten me through many, many tough times....remember, just breathe. Sending you lots of loving thoughts and hugs that will seep through the computer- Sara

Sophia said...

Thinking of you and your family during this time. I so respect the difficult decision you have had to make and your bravery in sharing your journey w/ others. You will be in my prayers.

md jones said...

Babies in the womb can feel everything at the gestational age of 9 weeks. This blog just broke my heart.