Monday, September 10, 2007

Over the weekend, hubby and I discussed and made our decision. We are going ahead with the reduction. It is the only thing that makes sense for us. We looked at all the statistics and everything, and we are going to do it. I'm incredibly sad that I have to be doing this. Nobody should ever have to be in this position ever. I'm scared about having the procedure - scared of it hurting, I'm scared of losing all of them, but this decision feels right for us.

I got more things straightened out with the insurance. The OB got the correct authorization codes. Then, the financial lady said it would take 3 days to go through, so I asked her if I could just schedule the appointment since it has to be done in a certain time frame. She said to have them put it in as "cash" and then they will change it. Of course, by the time she called me the appointment desk was closed so I have to call back tomorrow. Not sure what happens if they can't get me in. I really want it done on a Friday so I don't have to worry about work and what to tell people when I take 2 days off, but if I have to I will. The peri said I only need to rest for 24 hours, but I would like to rest for more - just in case.

I just can't believe this is happening to me. Why do infertiles always get the short end of the stick?

10 comments:

Natalie said...

I'm sorry this is such a tough time for you, when it should be so happy. :( I think that's what makes me saddest for you.

I'm sure you are doing the right thing for your family. Major, big hugs to you girl. I hope you are able to schedule it for a friday so you get the time off you need without having to explain to anyone.

beth said...

I hope you get the appointment you want and that it goes PERFECTLY... no issues, no other complications...

And I hope you get that 1 boy 1 girl wish :)

Anonymous said...

Here's to everything going smoothly for you Heather. Really wishing that you can move on to being excited about this pregnancy when the procedure is over. Take care!!!

Egged Out said...

I'm sorry you have to go through this - I'm sure it wasn't an easy decision to make. I'll be thinking of you and like anonymous said, it will be nice to get to the point where you are excited about this pregnancy. Best wishes.

Anonymous said...

I'm really sorry you made that decision. I will be praying for you and the little one(s) you are disposing of.

Drowned Girl said...

I wish you strength and peace. I would have done the same, and I'm sure it was a terribly hard decision.

xx

Amanda said...

I hope things go smoothly. I know this had to be a hard decision for you and your husband.

I will say a prayer for you both!

Fertilize Me said...

Heather - shuch a heartbreaking/nervous experience for you. I wish better dyas ahead for you

Karen said...

You are right, NO ONE should ever have to make this decision. And only someone who's been in your shoes can understand what kind of an earth-shattering decision this is to be faced with, no matter what the conclusion.

From what I understand, it's not a comfortable procedure, but not much different in terms of discomfort than an abdominal CVS or Amniocentesis procedure (assuming they're doing this abdominally, which they usually do, since they don't like to disturb the cervix). So I understand your fear of the pain, but I don't think it will be as painful as your imagination will let you believe. You might ask the doctor if there's something you can take for anxiety before the procedure (unfortunately, MOST anxiety medications are RIGHT OUT during pregnancy, but there still might be an option).

Good luck, and I'm so sorry, and DO ignore that RUDE, OBNOXIOUS anonymous commenter (the second one, not the first).

Taina said...

I'm so sorry. You have my support!